what do you see?

no mystery here

a fact

if you knew me like I do you'd turn around and walk away as fast as you can.

fuck you, world

I'm a burden to the society because I provide nothing to it.


I should educate myself but apparently it's impossible in this country to study and live at the same time without ending up with debts I'll never be able to pay off because I'm a social reject and a reclusive nerd who has panic attacks just thinking about going outside or applying for jobs.


Every decision I make turns out to be the wrong one.


I take too much space, in every way.

conclusions

she doesn't know what to say and ends up saying everything she never wanted to say fearing ridicule and misinterpretation.

she laughs without smiling at the pleas not to fade away and responds the only way she knows; with nothing but honesty thinly veiled as a joke, offering the chance to not take her seriously. it's what she always does.

she says she's not going anywhere and gives a list of songs she has yet to hear played live as the reason.

a fleeting exchange

her: Do you know that feeling when you feel like you belong? I felt that today. Thank you.

him: I felt that too, thank you.



Sadly enough, Wentz said it the best.


I've never really lived more than an hour.