I am the most selfish person I know

I haven't loved or wanted to love since 2006.


I want to disappear in the sunshine and dissolve into the wind. I want my sweetest breath to be my last.


Some days I pick up the phone only to realise there's no one I really want to call.


I look at myself smiling and laughing at other people's smiles and words and it disgusts me how deceitful I can be.


I never stick to the things I decide because there's no one to tell me I should.


I'm a passer by in my own life.


Maybe I could be happy if I learned how to forget about myself.