I lost a thread in the darkest of space

I'm sorry, I don't know why I keep logging on to this site when I really don't think I have anything interesting to say. I thought I could write about music, I really thought I could. I can't seem to find the time or energy to put all my thougts and emotions about songs I listen to into words. Why can't that feeling be enough? Why should I try to analyze it?
I shouldn't but I can't help wanting to. I want to write about something other than myself for once but apparently I fucking can't. (Say 'can't' like some Brits do and it sounds like 'cunt' with a long 'u'. Yeah.)

Some musicians really make me feel sick and I'd rather not say any more about that. Just, really. Some respect, please.

I need to start doing something other with my life than just listening to music.